Tuesday, January 10, 2023

Crying Tonight

My body is ache's 
Mother-Nature paid
Me a visit ....
Before I knew it tears 
Are streaming down 
eye's are blur,
mind is running..
But my emotion 
are all over the place. 
Not even a fixed up face
Would have stopped 
them falling down
Like a waterfall.
So, I let them. 

Deep with in me tonight
It's my heart escaping
from deep within to surface
showing up on face 
tear won't stop tonight
for sometime now
build up inside 
as my mind covered it
with a smile on my face
thinking why I smile 
to begin with..


Before I knew it 
thoughts and tears 
Entwined like flowing river
About where and why I ended up 
here once again ?
Shouldn't have I known better?
Now its done and over with
Only thing I know is that
need to make a move 
Those tears say other wise ...
...Other wise....

Deep with in me tonight.
It's my heart escaping
from deep within to surface
showing up on face 
tear  won't stop tonight
for sometime now
build up inside 
as my mind covered it
with a smile on my face
thinking why I smile 
to begin with..

Crying tonight 
Just to admit that 
Still a human
Still get hurt 
Still feeling the pain
Fight is far from over.
Still though one night 
Won't kill me just to feel
Weak being all alone.
Feeling physical pain
And able to let show 
No one around. 

Deep with in me tonight.
It's my heart escaping
from deep within to surface
showing up on face 
tear  won't stop tonight
for sometime now
except for tonight 
as I am letting it
all out once and for all.




Wednesday, January 4, 2023

Bouquet Of Red Rose's

Beautiful bouquet 

Of red rose's you send me

Day after Christmas,

Reminding me of what 

Was lost now.

Even the flower's 

Could not help you now. 

Spite of it all they are 

Still beautiful to admire.  


Rose's you are not to 

Be blamed for his mess up.

Rose's I am sorry   

He got you involved. 

Rose's I will only 

Remember you as

Flower's that buried love

You slowly fading away 

In my memories 

A long with him.


Picked up from the ground

To be put in a vase 

You fading away, 

In matter of days.

What a sad faith

Flower's happened 

To share with us.

Beautiful one day

Gone the next few as 

They pass away.

Love as pure once share

Reflected in color of red, 

All was gone with dawn.


Rose's you are not to 

Be blamed for the mess up.

Rose's I am sorry 

He got you involved. 

Rose's I will only 

Remember you as

Flower's that buried love

You slowly fading away 

In my memories 

A long with him.


Faded bouquet of 

Of red rose's set

On my nightstand.

Reminded me of the

Love we have buried 

So many time's now,

Never came back

Same as it once was.

Almost as if we gave up 

Our love long ago

Without road to return back.


Rose's you are not to 

Be blamed for his mess up.

Rose's I am sorry  that he 

Got you involved. 

Rose's I will only 

Remember you as

Flower's that buried love

You slowly fading away 

In my memories 

A long with him.



Flower's of buried love

Forgive us for giving up. 

Flower's of buried love

Sorry for your short 

Life time spent now.

As you fading away 

In a vase build of glass.

Flower's of buried love

Ill keep you in 

My memories not

Because you are

The symbol of love. 

Only 'cause you 

You remind me of 

How to move along.


Rose's you are not to 

Be blamed for his mess up.

Rose's I am sorry  that he 

Got you involved. 

Rose's I will only 

Remember you as

Flower's that buried love

You slowly fading away 

In my memories 

A long with him. 


My wound's once

Were bleeding as red 

And vivid color as you

Were presented to me.

Watching you fading away,

Day after day.

Somehow you reminded me

How to heal wounds

Of my own.

As I'm saying goodbye to

Bouquet of red rose's.