Crying Tonight

My body is ache's 

Mother-Nature paid

Me a visit ....

Before I knew it tears 

Are streaming down 

eye's are blur,

mind is running..

But my emotion 

are all over the place. 

Not even a fixed up face

Would have stopped 

them falling down

Like a waterfall.

So, I let them. 

Deep with in me tonight

It's my heart escaping

from deep within to surface

showing up on face 

tear won't stop tonight

for sometime now

build up inside 

as my mind covered it

with a smile on my face

thinking why I smile 

to begin with..

Before I knew it 

thoughts and tears 

Entwined like flowing river

About where and why I ended up 

here once again ?

Shouldn't have I known better?

Now its done and over with

Only thing I know is that

need to make a move 

Those tears say other wise ...

...Other wise....

Deep with in me tonight.

It's my heart escaping

from deep within to surface

showing up on face 

tear  won't stop tonight

for sometime now

build up inside 

as my mind covered it

with a smile on my face

thinking why I smile 

to begin with..

Crying tonight 

Just to admit that 

Still a human

Still get hurt 

Still feeling the pain

Fight is far from over.

Still though one night 

Won't kill me just to feel

Weak being all alone.

Feeling physical pain

And able to let show 

No one around. 

Deep with in me tonight.

It's my heart escaping

from deep within to surface

showing up on face 

tear  won't stop tonight

for sometime now

except for tonight 

as I am letting it

all out once and for all.

Bouquet Of Red Rose's

Beautiful bouquet 

Of red rose's you send me

Day after Christmas,

Reminding me of what 

Was lost now.

Even the flower's 

Could not help you now. 

Spite of it all they are 

Still beautiful to admire.  

Rose's you are not to 

Be blamed for his mess up.

Rose's I am sorry   

He got you involved. 

Rose's I will only 

Remember you as

Flower's that buried love

You slowly fading away 

In my memories 

A long with him.

Picked up from the ground

To be put in a vase 

You fading away, 

In matter of days.

What a sad faith

Flower's happened 

To share with us.

Beautiful one day

Gone the next few as 

They pass away.

Love as pure once share

Reflected in color of red, 

All was gone with dawn.

Rose's you are not to 

Be blamed for the mess up.

Rose's I am sorry 

He got you involved. 

Rose's I will only 

Remember you as

Flower's that buried love

You slowly fading away 

In my memories 

A long with him.

Faded bouquet of 

Of red rose's set

On my nightstand.

Reminded me of the

Love we have buried 

So many time's now,

Never came back

Same as it once was.

Almost as if we gave up 

Our love long ago

Without road to return back.

Rose's you are not to 

Be blamed for his mess up.

Rose's I am sorry  that he 

Got you involved. 

Rose's I will only 

Remember you as

Flower's that buried love

You slowly fading away 

In my memories 

A long with him.

Flower's of buried love

Forgive us for giving up. 

Flower's of buried love

Sorry for your short 

Life time spent now.

As you fading away 

In a vase build of glass.

Flower's of buried love

Ill keep you in 

My memories not

Because you are

The symbol of love. 

Only 'cause you 

You remind me of 

How to move along.

Rose's you are not to 

Be blamed for his mess up.

Rose's I am sorry  that he 

Got you involved. 

Rose's I will only 

Remember you as

Flower's that buried love

You slowly fading away 

In my memories 

A long with him. 

My wound's once

Were bleeding as red 

And vivid color as you

Were presented to me.

Watching you fading away,

Day after day.

Somehow you reminded me

How to heal wounds

Of my own.

As I'm saying goodbye to

Bouquet of red rose's.

  

 

Dancing

 Music is playing 

In the back round

As my thoughts 

Leaving my mind...

I start to move slowly

With plenty of room.

My body only hears

Every note and instrument

All lyric's as well.

Dancing alone

Feeling good as my

Body moves on its own

To the notes as if it

Knows what to do

On the dance floor

My mind is in captivity

Of the lyrics words.

I'm feeling free...

Somehow...somewhere..

I felt this feeling before

I wounder when was it?

'Cause it's amazing feeling,

Like you are out of 

Control for once,

Not in a crazy 

Way either.

Dancing alone

Feeling good as my

Body moves on its own

To the notes as if it

Knows what to do

On the dance floor

My mind is in captivity

Of the lyrics words.

I'm feeling free...

A pretty image 

Appeared on the surface

Of my mind...

I am somewhere

Back home...In Ukraine.

Dancing alone

Feeling good as my

Body moves on its own

To the notes as if it

Knows what to do

On the dance floor

My mind is in captivity

Of the lyrics words.

I'm feeling free...

Surrounded  by trees 

All  around me 

As I am dancing

 To the sound of the 

Wind gently playing 

With the leave's, 

Composed harmony

Just in time for the

Welcoming the Summer.

Dancing alone

Feeling good as my

Body moves on its own

To the notes as if it

Knows what to do

On the dance floor

My mind is in captivity

Of the lyrics words.

I'm feeling free.

I almost forgot 

How this even feels,

So, free.... 

As if a bird broke

Loose from the case 

In which it was trapped in.

  

 

  

 

Four Sister's

 There are four sister's

Whom we call season's.

Amazing how all four

Have a way of shining,

In a spot light of their 

Own space and time .

Four sister's holding hands

As dancing in a circle

One after another,

Each has a turn to shine

With time to back up showing,

Their beauty to the world.

In viewing, the eldest

Sister is the Winter.

She is coldest 

More to herself.

As the eldest one

She is a bit bitter.

In a reason of her own

as she saw maturity.

She is more cautions

hiding behind the cold.

Covering the ground 

with white blanket

of snow and 

Swirling blizzard's

Through the season. 

Four sister's holding hands

As dancing in a circle

One after another,

Each has a turn to shine

Time at the back showing

Their beauty to the world.

The second eldest

Sister is Autumn.

Dressed in colors,

of orange, red, 

With light-brown's

touch of dark-grey,

kind of gown. 

She is more used 

The wild wind's

And rainy day's.

The one's  howling

At window's and house's,

As they feel the shake.

Rain filling the

Street's with inch

deep water'.

Almost as if she is

Somehow upset.

By being somewhere

In between two

Of her sisters.

Four sister's holding hands

As dancing in a circle

One after another,

Each has a turn to shine

Time at the back showing

Their beauty to the world.

Summer is the third sister,

As she melts in the sun.

Splashing warm pool waters,

And sandy beaches somewhere.

Putting smiles on our faces

She is the happy, 

One after all.

Four sister's holding hands

As dancing in a circle

One after another,

Each has a turn to shine

Time at the back showing

Their beauty to the world.

Than there is the 

Youngest sister, Spring.

Blooming with youth

Blooming with colors

green, pink, yellow,

Brighter, soft kind of gown. 

Leaving smile on our face's

As if teaching us love again.

As she rise flower's 

From the ground.

Melting away our hearts

In a warm breezy wind,

Of rising again.

After her eldest sister

Bitter-cold, Winter.

When the world hear's

Sound again after 

A very long slumber.

Spring is the gently

Spoken one, of them all.

Four sister's holding hands

As dancing in a circle

One after another,

Each has a turn to shine

Time at the back showing

Their beauty to the world.

Before we knew it

A full year came to a circle.

I Need A Moment

What have I done? 

What has happened?

How did I get here?

Only seconds away

Facing death again.

I'm walking away.

I need a moment alone.

I need to think.

I need to fall apart. 

Even if I stay in silents,

As I listen to music.

I start lose my own 

Train of thoughts 

Come to realize,

Am I fearing of living?

The change  I slightly

don't understand?

Maybe it's pain 

which holds me back?

I need a moment alone.

I need to think.

I need to fall apart.

Even if I stay in silents,

As I listen to music.

I start lose my own 

Train of thoughts 

Oh! I did sit alright!

How well I listen

In the darkest memory

Of my life. 

Where I have feared the most.

Life was slipping

Through my finger's

Like water.

I need a moment alone.

I need to think.

I need to fall apart.

Even if I stay in silents,

As I listen to music.

I start lose my own

Train of thoughts 

Life would not stop here

It will go on

Even when you 

Want to stop to think.

Its the moments you

You start missing

Most in the quite.

Life doesn't stop though.

I need a moment alone.

I need to think.

I need to fall apart.

Even if I stay in silents,

As I listen to music.

I start lose my own 

Train of thoughts 

Music is a melody

You can find everywhere. 

Even in the sound of the 

Wind playing gently

With new born leaves

In the spring time

If you stop to listen.

I need a moment alone.

I need to think.

I need to fall apart.

Even if I stay in silents,

As I listen to music.

I start lose my own 

Train of thoughts 

I've had enough of quite.

I've had enough of listening.

At least now.

I need a moment alone.

I need to think.

I need to fall apart.

Even if I stay in silents,

As I listen to music.

I start hearing my own 

Train of thoughts 

Coming back to me

 

 

 

 

  

Leave Me, Alone!

 

Remember

When I told you

"You will know!

When I will write,

for you.."

Here it is, boy.

Leave me alone!

Let me go!

We tried, it didn't work.

I can't take it anymore!

Exhausted of falling

For the same old story.

Spinning around,

Like a snowflake

To the ground,

I go

Melting away.

.. one day ..

Never thought..

About the outcome

In a long run.

For the longest time

I kept forgiving you!

Still, you kept on

playing around!

Leave me alone!

Let me go!

We tried, it didn't work.

I can't take it anymore!

Exhausted of falling

For the same old story.

Spinning around,

Like a snowflake

To the ground,

I go

Melting away.

.. one day ..

What did you think was

Going to happen

After all those times?!

Even when I knew better

Spite it all I stayed

Loved you, anyway!

Where was your

Love though,

I'll never know.

Leave me alone!

Let me go!

We tried, it didn't work.

I can't take it anymore!

Exhausted of falling

For the same old story.

Spinning around,

Like a snowflake

To the ground,

I go

Melting away.

.. one day ..

"I am sorry!"

All I kept on hearing

From you!

Where were you...

When I was in need

Of a friend..

It doesn't matter,

Anymore..

Leave me alone!

Let me go!

We tried, it didn't work.

I can't take it anymore!

Exhausted of falling

For the same old story.

Spinning around,

Like a snowflake

To the ground,

I go

Melting away.

.. one day ..

Well, let me be clear!

Once & for all...

Your words mean

Nothing to me

Anymore!

Too many broken,

Promises from you!

Leave me alone!

Let me go!

We tried, it didn't work.

I can't take it anymore!

Exhausted of falling

For the same old story.

Spinning around,

Like a snowflake

To the ground,

I go

Melting away.

.. one day ..

Stay alone!

For all I care..

You were too

Busy, anyway..

So, be my guest...

Because I'm done

Believing you!

Leave me alone!

Let me go!

We tried, it didn't work.

I can't take it anymore!

Exhausted of falling

For the same old story.

Spinning around,

Like a snowflake

To the ground,

I go

Melting away.

.. one day ..

Don't come back, either..

Now, go away!

Four years

was enough

For me.

Honestly

I'm sorry

For letting you down!

I'm sorry

For not being there for you!

Most of all I am 

Very sorry

for being honest to the core. 

 

Honesty is a 

fine line neither

right nor wrong.

If we don't get along

just move on!

Between you and me

Where is honesty here?

Unless we talk face to face

Each has perspective

views as well.

Honesty is a 

fine line neither

right nor wrong.

If we don't get along

just move on!

We all make mistakes

Don't get me wrong.

 I wanted to open

 with you and myself

as well.

Honesty is a 

fine line neither

right nor wrong.

If we don't get along

just move on!

All I see with you 

Is end of the line

Going, no where

Honesty is a 

fine line neither

right nor wrong.

If we don't get along

just move on!

  Honestly,

 It's crystal clear to me!

In the end

It's about what side

Of the fine line

you choose to walk

I choose the one

where it's yet,

to be revealed.