Barbie Girl

she wears heavy eye make-up,

with bright red lipgloss.

she always has nice clothes and high heels on.

on the street you wouldn’t miss the barbie girl.

people always wonder why she dresses so nice,

just to go outside.

she is known as a high class lady,

boys too afraid to go near her

they might not fit the perfect profile of her dream boy.

barbie girl why her eyes filled with emptiness of gray?

why she keeps her head so high?

its as if she is finding something dark inside.

she pulled out a cigarette from her purse and lights up.

and hides from the world.

what a nasty hubby she got…

someone says who saw her from the distance.

she is to sweet and attractive to

throw away her life like that.

they can judge all they want

but the reason i'm stuck like this

is because i got nothing to fill

the hole in my heart.

this is not the answer this i know

but what else am i supposed to do

on this empty, lonely, and broken earth?

nothing! nothing at all…

as she went to put the cancer stick out

Even beautiful girls  have something to cry at night,

well in my case that is i'm cursed for life

with this thing they call beauty.

i scare my friends, and i make others feel

like i'm too cool for them,

when in the end all i want is to be myself.

these nice clothes are just for show,

so is the heavy make-up.

i just want to be recognized for who i am

not for my outside appearance.

will happen or not

i don't know.

i will be something someday but not right now

i will find what i seem to lost in life.

i will go back to who i was and not who i am

i will ...i will….i will.

as she cried all alone.

holding on to a pillow tight...